But I have a few questions first I’m pretty sure I trusted Christ alone for salvation and repented of sin. However very soon after I fell back into an old sin and it was like a knife going in my heart. I battled and battled for years and then about 3 years ago I gave up and said I’m never overcoming this and stopped trying.

So I fully backslid but deep down I still wanted God and Jesus so anyway about 2 weeks ago I watched a video about a man called Bill Weis who went to he’ll for 23 minutes and I think God used it to give me a real kick up the behind.

So for the past 2 weeks I’ve been really seeking God and getting godly council I repented of the sin I was battling again and I’m more serious now than ever.

My doubts still continue though such as did I really believe in Christ or is it just head belief not heart belief

Why can I not sense God’s presence or hear His voice even though I desire that close relationship with Jesus

I’m worried about performing religious works as opposed to obedience and works of faith.

I would appreciate a yokes advice/help because I don’t know if I need to be saved still or if I just need to grow and battle sin and the enemy

Thanks in advance

Mike

Katie, this is an excerpt from Oswald Chambers, “My Utmost for His Highest” devotion (December 3) :

“When once you are rooted in Reality, nothing can shake you. If your faith is in experiences, any thing that happens is likely to upset that faith; but nothing can ever upset God or the almighty Reality of Redemption; base your faith on that, and you are as eternally secure as God. When once you get into personal contact with Jesus Christ, you will never be moved again.”

God spoke to me through this one evening and I finally realized that I had been trying to put my faith in “what I did” or “how I prayed” the night I was saved. Our salvation does not come through how we say a prayer or what we did. Your salvation comes from the finished work of Christ on the Cross and having a repentant heart. Don’t put your faith in your own experiences… it’s in Christ and Christ alone and what HE did. And HE knows your heart better than yourself. Place your faith in Him – not in your experience. HE is the Reality of your salvation.

Amazing. God is so Good.

I got saved when I was 12, I’m 25 now and doubts have been attacking me for years, I feel like I have to keep replaying the moments leading up to my salvation over and over again searching for a reason why the Lord may not have actually saved me regardless of the promises that the bible gives to those who call on his name, I pray that the Lord strengthens my faith so that my joy may be full.

It means like paul says in 1 corinthians that even though grace is produced from our sin, we shouldn’t then think to continue in that sin. The grace we were given already should be enough. In other words, don’t use grace as a license to sin.

“Child-like faith” simply means you believe as a child would believe. For instance, if you are a mother, or even if not, you as a little girl, remember Christmas? Remember when your parents would tell you Santa Claus would bring you presents? As a child, you probably believed that. As an adult, we know better, but children know only what they are told. As is, we, like children, know only what we are told by jesus and not only believe it, but have faith that it is so. Expectant. Did jesus say “whosoever believes in me and calls out my name, the same shall be saved”? If you believe that, then have faith and be expectant. We all have doubts. Mine occur early in the morning after waking from sleep. I think because 10 years ago, I lost my wife. We were both 29. It was a week before our 30th birthdays. Ever since, I have struggled with anxiety at night before bed and in the morning after waking up. It’s easy and simple, but our mentalities, what we have been through, these are what cause us doubt. The trick is to drop all of that. Drop our victim mentality and claim the promises jesus gave us in the bible. He wouldn’t lie. So why should we doubt him? The enemy causes us doubt. I didn’t even start having these anxiety issues with salvation until one day I decided to re-dedicate, renew my vows to jesus. A week before I planned to renew and re-dedicate myself, I had a massive attack on my faith that caused me to doubt where I stood with God to begin with. It’s tough, but I’m trying my best to keep my belief and faith in jesus words. Fear is a liar and Satan is the enemy spreading those lies.

Travis it’s been 7 years since you wrote this.
How are you today?

Yes ask God to forgive you of your sins and to be Lord of your life. He sat with murders and thieves. He will be there with you too as you move forward and let go of your past.